Preparing for long term travel is a time when you are overcome with a magnitude of emotions especially as your departure date approaches. As I sit here on my flight out to Bogota, Colombia, I am not only nervous and scared, but excited, sad and happy all at the same time.
My decision to quit my job makes me nervous and drives me to doubt myself. Did I make the right move by leaving and quitting my job? Will I come to regret this decision later on in life? Will this decision have a negative impact on my future? Will I again be lucky and blessed with amazing coworkers (aka lunch bunch) in the near future? And what exactly does the future hold for me?
I am scared for all the possible outcomes the unknown entails. Mainly, will I be safe and protected from harm? What should I expect the crime to be like in every city I plan to visit? Not only is my own intuition warning me to be cautious, but the constant reminder from various family and friends to be safe only adds to my initial concerns (although, don’t get me wrong, I do love and appreciate all the concern expressed by those I care about).
I am excited for the all the adventure that awaits me! The nature, the hikes, the cultures and most importantly the people I will meet along the way are what have and what continue to inspire me to travel and immerse myself in the various cultures and histories I wouldn’t get to learn about otherwise.
Although, I cannot deny the sadness I feel for leaving behind loved ones, both family and friends. It is these relationships I value the most in life and these people that I will miss the most while I am away. It saddens me to think I will be missing out on important life events that will take place in my absence: the missed birthdays, the weddings I won’t get to attend and most importantly the birth of my twin nieces or nephews I won’t get to witness!
I am, however, happy to have the courage to follow my dreams and pursue my true passions. It makes me happy to know that although I’m unsure about what the future has planned for me and what will precede my travels abroad, I can take a step back and follow my own footsteps and do what makes me happy in the present moment.
All things considered, the biggest and most treasured feeling I have is that of being loved (thanks Mom and Dad). I am overwhelmed with emotions (all good!) and touched by how many people have reached out to say good-bye, wish me Bon Voyage and make sure to let me know I will be missed while I am gone – even if it is just for a short while!
What this journey has helped me to realize thus far, is how beyond blessed and lucky I am to have the type of family and friends I have in my life today, as well as the experiences and memories I have built with these people over the course of my lifetime.
Here is to many more years of a life I wouldn’t change for the world 😉
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